"It will also serve to make us all crazier and sadder and angrier than we would have been otherwise."
You hit where I'm at today (and far too many days) spot on the nailhead with this. I want to bury my head in my own little fantasy world. And I feel guilty for that! For refusing to deal with reality. For putting my fingers in my ears and singing "Lah Lah Lah I can't heeeaarrrrr yooouuuuu!" whenever something bad happens. Which it does *constantly.* All I can do is feel bad, get depressed. Sometimes I can "share" online. Which gives us the illusion that we're DOING SOMETHING ABOUT IT! Sharing actually HAS made things happen in many cases.
But I've got to unplug from the matrix or it will kill my spirit.
otoh, when I can't deal with what I have to in my own home -- clutter, too much paper, yard work, organizing, blah blah shoot me now please! -- the 'net provides a handy distraction. As long as I don't look at the bad stuff.
otoh, connections with people bring me inspiration. Which sometimes also depresses me, because they are SO much more talented than I could ever dream of being. They create. I just watch what they create, envy it, store away jpgs of it. To what end?
I have no answers today. Not holding my breath for having any anytime soon either.
But yeh, Jodi, you nailed it. Thank you. i feel a little bit more centered now.
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You hit where I'm at today (and far too many days) spot on the nailhead with this. I want to bury my head in my own little fantasy world. And I feel guilty for that! For refusing to deal with reality. For putting my fingers in my ears and singing "Lah Lah Lah I can't heeeaarrrrr yooouuuuu!" whenever something bad happens. Which it does *constantly.* All I can do is feel bad, get depressed. Sometimes I can "share" online. Which gives us the illusion that we're DOING SOMETHING ABOUT IT! Sharing actually HAS made things happen in many cases.
But I've got to unplug from the matrix or it will kill my spirit.
otoh, when I can't deal with what I have to in my own home -- clutter, too much paper, yard work, organizing, blah blah shoot me now please! -- the 'net provides a handy distraction. As long as I don't look at the bad stuff.
otoh, connections with people bring me inspiration. Which sometimes also depresses me, because they are SO much more talented than I could ever dream of being. They create. I just watch what they create, envy it, store away jpgs of it. To what end?
I have no answers today. Not holding my breath for having any anytime soon either.
But yeh, Jodi, you nailed it. Thank you. i feel a little bit more centered now.