Memories

[dancerjodi]

Lately I've been thinking a lot about the things that were most important in my life - I'm talking back in High School or in College before the later years when things were frantic.

I love to dance and I've been picking up old Broadway musical sountracks on CD to replace the worn cassetts that I have. Yesterday I acquired Cole Porter's "Anything Goes". I was in that musical in High School as one of Reno Sweeney's Angels - basically a nightclub singer turned Christian evangelist. And my name was Innocence.

Where do those little pieces of ourselves go when there isn't time to nurture them? I came so close to auditioning for a couple of dance numbers in a show and I chickened out. "Oh, its too big of a time commitment, It will make my next few months crazy". Maybe I'm just being weak? I don't really take many risks lately.

Is it wrong to think back to a far away time so often? For some reason I've been doing it lots lately. Maybe I just crave the simplicity of it all?

Or perhaps my life seems so simple and boring compared to those around me so I'm going to stir it up a bit; adding more activity to the days to make things a little crazy? I am such a Bostonian!

Comments

[jillianpie.livejournal.com]

i've been going through this whole attempt to become the person i was in high school.

i've been trying to play clarinet more often and join an orchestra and write stories and sculpt...

i dunno, maybe i'm not that person anymore. maybe that part ov my life is over.

i spend a lot ov time just remembering things. wondering how i could have made things turn out differently three years ago.

where do those little parts ov you go when you don't nurture them?

i've no idea. but i hope they're still there.

mebbe i'll try to get em out this weekend.


much luv,
jillianpie