The update

[dancerjodi]

I'm happy about some things, nervous about others, bummed about others. Sometimes I wish I didn't care about things so much. Looking back on it last night it hit me - its been over five years that I've been alternately working toward and then giving up on this. I need to figure out how to stop either caring about it, or letting it get me down when reality sets in.

Getting up at 5:45 AM is hard enough as it is without doing it after a night of little sleep and some crying.

I'm back to dancing again tonight though, so that's a good thing. I decided to do a Persephone dance for my class after all; given everything it seems appropriate.

Quote of the Day:
"Gratitude is not only the greatest of all virtues, but the parent of all others." - Cicero

Comments

Re: *hugs*

[tiamatlady]

"We'll just see what happens with job and severance, invite the realtor over to talk about possibilities and what he thinks we'd get for our house, and just keep our eyes open."

That doesn't sound like reality setting in, that sounds like a good plan. I can see that it's the waiting, on severance, on B's potenial job, on the working out the money is the thing that's grating on you. It's like me waiting for tax season to end - that there's stuff that'll happen FAST, but you have to wait for it to.

You and I should be doing the same thing - preparing in the slow time, for when life jumps down our throats and moves fast. Like I have to poke kazama about getting me a webpage to use in advertising once I'm ready for new clients. For pay, of course. *grins* And a website/domain name. Wheee!

*Big hugs* don't let this get you too down - it won't do to have you get sick on top of it.