The update

[dancerjodi]

I'm happy about some things, nervous about others, bummed about others. Sometimes I wish I didn't care about things so much. Looking back on it last night it hit me - its been over five years that I've been alternately working toward and then giving up on this. I need to figure out how to stop either caring about it, or letting it get me down when reality sets in.

Getting up at 5:45 AM is hard enough as it is without doing it after a night of little sleep and some crying.

I'm back to dancing again tonight though, so that's a good thing. I decided to do a Persephone dance for my class after all; given everything it seems appropriate.

Quote of the Day:
"Gratitude is not only the greatest of all virtues, but the parent of all others." - Cicero

Comments

Persephone dance ...

[vlindinhauer.livejournal.com]

(I was LJing around and thought I'd pay a visit)

Can you tell me a little bit about your Persephone dance?

I've invented a few in my day ...

The Hades/Persephone story was the first Greek Myth that captivated me.

Moreover, 'tis the name of my wife.

Re: Persephone dance ...

[dancer.livejournal.com]

"Can you tell me a little bit about your Persephone dance?"

Well, in my bellydance class we all need to come up with a Goddess dance. I was planning on doing one for Artemis (given her and my affinity toward animals) but was listening to some music in the car the other day and heard a good persephone song. Given we've had a bad chain of events occur lately (but that we're trying to make some good of it) I thought that paying tribute to Persephone was more apropos.

The song? Aerosmith's "Take me to the other side". Bellydancing to Aerosmith should be interesting :)

Re: Persephone dance ...

[vlindinhauer.livejournal.com]

Cool ...

I love "mixed media" like that.
Aerosmith and Bellydancing: very cool.

Now try and dance away some of those blues!
Movement is therapeutic. (insert wacky dancing image here)

Re: Persephone dance ...

[dancer.livejournal.com]

"Now try and dance away some of those blues! Movement is therapeutic. (insert wacky dancing image here)"

That's what I'm hoping for. I haven't had class in two weeks so tonight will be a huge help!

*hugs*

[tiamatlady]

Whatever it is that has you so down, has to still be kicking around for a reason. Should you really be dealing with how to give up on it? Or should you be working on making it happen? Who says reality has to take it away, really?

I kinda know how you feel - at least with my career. I keep wondering if I have to "give up and give in" especiallly after the weekend, after all the work and struggle. I don't think it's close to the same, but without details it's as close as I get.

*big hugs*

Re: *hugs*

[dancer.livejournal.com]

"I kinda know how you feel - at least with my career. I keep wondering if I have to "give up and give in" especiallly after the weekend, after all the work and struggle."

I think its similar - its the 'trying to buy a house in Waltham' thing that I've been facing since even before B and I got married. Sometimes something happens to give me some hope and then reality sets in. Its really frustrating.

I'm glad we have *a* house period, and glad we'll have some money to put towards another one at some point. B and I speak different languages when it comes to money (and how much we have) and so I end up thinking we have more than we do, get an idea in my head, run with it, figure out what the real case is and get dropped. I need to try to not get so excited about things.

We'll just see what happens with job and severance, invite the realtor over to talk about possibilities and what he thinks we'd get for our house, and just keep our eyes open. There are 3 houses on the market right now in Waltham that we could afford - they are either teeny or they are complete dumps (and in all cases, we'd be paying more in mortgage).

Blech.

I just need a rich uncle or something (don't we all?)!

Re: *hugs*

[tiamatlady]

"We'll just see what happens with job and severance, invite the realtor over to talk about possibilities and what he thinks we'd get for our house, and just keep our eyes open."

That doesn't sound like reality setting in, that sounds like a good plan. I can see that it's the waiting, on severance, on B's potenial job, on the working out the money is the thing that's grating on you. It's like me waiting for tax season to end - that there's stuff that'll happen FAST, but you have to wait for it to.

You and I should be doing the same thing - preparing in the slow time, for when life jumps down our throats and moves fast. Like I have to poke kazama about getting me a webpage to use in advertising once I'm ready for new clients. For pay, of course. *grins* And a website/domain name. Wheee!

*Big hugs* don't let this get you too down - it won't do to have you get sick on top of it.