dancerjodi

An email I sent to Brian today:

Hey Babe,

Last night and today seem kind of like the last straw for me. We have had such challenges with breastfeeding. I was talking about it and sleep and how they are related today at the new Mom's group. I'm just not fully enjoying the time I have with Mina and I'm stressing the two of us out by doing this.

Given our lifestyle, it would be so much easier to do formula. We are always out and about. I'm beating myself up over not doing the "best" option for our baby.

But the more I try to make this fit, the more I think that the "best" for us may be formula.

I feel like a failure, but feel like there may be some hope of salvaging the rest of my break if she and I can just be happier and more well rested.

This is so hard. :/

....

I just gave her 3 ozs of formula. She gulped it down and is out like a light. And I am crying.

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